Invisible illnesses/Anxiety

I wish there was a way to put others in my brain. To let others experience my nonstop worrying and self-criticism. I have no idea how to explain it to people who do not understand. They just tell me to stop thinking like that. That would work only if I had any control over my…

What I call my “anxiety voice”

My natural speaking voice is in the middle range for a woman which makes sense as I am a woman. However, anytime that I talk to a stranger or I feel anxious talking to someone, my voice goes up a full octave. The first time I noticed this was when I was trick or treating…

Empathy part two

I have discovered a new way to describe how empathetic I am. I feel as if I am a sponge that is able to soak up everyone's emotions. I believe that this is one of the reasons why I don't particularly like telling people how I really feel because I don't think that they need…

Today’s achievement.

Today I took the bus downtown by myself to go see pitch perfect 3 in the theater all by myself. To some, this may not seem like a huge accomplishment, it may seem like a super mundane activity but to me it's huge. Before starting on Zoloft and before coming to college, I couldn't even…

I am so weird

My anxiety is insanely weird, I don't understand it at all. I am petrified of starting conversations with anyone, even people I know sometimes. When someone actually talks to me though, it's like an explosion of words. I just can't stop talking. Then, when I start talking, I start second guessing if they want me…

Paranoid

I find that any time I am around people, I am always paranoid that everyone is judging me and talking about me. I always believe that my friends are not really my friends and are just pretending to be my friend. I try to stop thinking like this but I always counter that with, "but…

Lists

Making lists is a huge part of my life. I have to make to do lists for every day of my life if I want to get anything productive done. This is because I have short term memory problems. I need to write everything down right away or I will forget it within seconds. It…

Empathy

I am extremely empathetic, so much so that it sometimes annoys me because if someone is upset, I quickly become upset as well.It also works with anxiety. If my mom is anxious (which is often) I become anxious even if anxiety has absolutely nothing to do with my life. I can easily tell if someone…