I always assume that the worst is going to happen so that I don’t get disappointed because most times that I have gotten my hopes up, it never goes my way.
I try so hard to not hate myself but I only end up hating myself more because it feels like I am being selfish.
I wish my brain was just normal, I wish I could find somewhere that I belong.
Why am I so lazy and stupid and weak and annoying and a burden.
Why can’t I be normal.